they're only words.

We learn to speak by age 2 but it takes us a lifetime to learn how to shut up...

In all the ways a human is able to express himself, I guess speaking is used the most. It helps us to let the other people know what we know, what we think, what we don't know, what we want them to do... and the list goes on...

But speaking also allows us to express our feelings... it gives us an outlet to the pain, the anger, love that we feel inside... kaya nga siguro napasigaw na lang si Anakin Skywalker nang siya ay naging si Darth Vader... he probably just wanted to let it all out...

The spoken language, like time, cannot be taken back... pag-nasabi mo na, nasabi mo na... parang grandrounds, audit o kaya Candy Pangilinan...

Sometimes, in our relation to others, we say things we don't really mean, or haven't really thought of... or out of the "spur of the moment" tipong temporary insanity...

At other times, we get so angry or hurt or worked up and think of the best things to say in order to hurt back, fight back and come out the winner in the word-fight.

When we're able to control ourselves and keep the word we have created to ourselves... we feel frustrated and sometimes like a looser... But when we allow ourselves to explode say the perfectly horrid things we have conjured up in our minds, we feel triumphant... at least at first... then perhaps guilt, then often times regret... Regret that we have said what we wanted to say when we wanted to say it... why do we feel like this? I don't know... Is it because we have allowed ourselves to be taken over by anger? Because being angry means that your not "nice"? or maybe because we have hurt someone intentionally? Ewan... you go figure.

But why did we speak out of anger? well, we're expressing ourselves. And more often than not, we're just letting it out... But also, when we speak out of anger we get to say things we can never take back and damage relationships which will never be the same.

And so, when we receive words spoken out of anger, perhaps we should think: galit lang siguro siya, baka temporary insanity lang, o kaya naman, may kasalanan din ba ako?

But why did I write this? we'll, I'm explaining myself. Because sometimes, I'm just letting it out... and maybe, I have said things that I wish I could take back... Ewan... you go figure.